Here's something hard to explain. (my wife makes fun of me when I say a feeling "is very specific and hard to explain", which she — rightly — says is contradictory. But what I have in mind is a very narrow emotion provoked by a bullseye event. This song is what I mean . The very specific and hard to explain feelings it evokes. It's from an era of New Order that had by then traveled miles and miles away from its Joy Division roots but was not yet that other thing - a kind of global party phenomenon you'd never fail to hear on the dance floor in the late 80's and early 90s. I was becoming some other thing too I think. Still comprised of the fading elements of my teenage years and the post-punk broody angst embodied by bands like Joy Division. While under the surface I was embarked on a secret plan to discard those personality traits that made my life harder, while trying to fashion a public-facing personality acceptable to me and the world. Hearing this song no...
